6-Hours gloominess

It's one of the home alone morning. Big sis was working while lil sis went school for her school activity. Final LAN subjects exam is coming next, so I decided to be a good girl, started flipping through the lecture notes, looking for where should i start. Read 1 page....2 pages...3 pages....4.....5...... finally i dozed off. You know, when you're jaded, you can hardly resist the temptation of cuddling your head into your arms. It's soooooooooooo awesome that feels like it should go on forever XD

Then, i started hearing my mobile phone ringing. I reached my phone. I saw wad i expected to see- lil sis was calling. "ok time to fetch her back". For the recent days, you can just set the watch and see the rain falls at the same time everyday. On the way driving back home, the sky was already dark, as soon as i reached home, it was already pouring outside. I sighed with my mood going down, "Here comes the rain again..." I woke up on every cloudy day, secretly hoping for sunshine, but most of the time it disappoints me. Until now, the rain is still pounding on the tin roof... =.=

6 hours back, i was feeling really bad, depressed and helpless, together with my lil sis because we have done something which has annoyed our big sis. Needless to say we have been the recipents of silent treatment and the period of being in the doghouse was really killing us. We went through sadness by keeping each other company and comforting each other saying that we act according to our conscience, everything would turn out fine soon. We owe her an apology for snagging part of her plan. Sorry :'(

(Pingu - her favourite Swiss animated television series)

The sadness started going away only when she broke the silence and started talking to us. It feels like a 50kg heavy blanket is being lifted from our shoulders. Thank God the sisters band is reconnected.

the Lee's sisters're back! ^^

Yes just to mention this very fast, i'm a very family person, always put my family before myself. To my dear dad, mum and bro who are currently having vacation in China, hope u all are having really lots of fun over there ^^ (i think they are now in Foshan)

A brief of crucial period

It's quiet around here, crickets are playing their swooning song of night right outside, and i'm not wanting to shut my eyes yet because this is the best time to spend time being reflective, look inward, and rearrange the clutter in my mind.

No doubt, the secret of exam preparation is to revise effectively and as early as possible. So spending more time on books is wad i've been doing lately as i'm going to have my big exam in jan 09, which is 1++ month.... yea not so long to go now, and this is why i'm feeling a pretty tense and overwhelmed lately. I stick myself to chair, go on reading while sipping a cup of aloe vera juice, talk about books and dreams about answers, suspend pleasure orientated activities, forget about going for my favourite horror movie, cancel my friends' invitation for sing K session...... WAIT!! I broke my daily work-out routine! Having low level of activity, spending time in claustrophobic room--- this sounds more like i'm leading a sedentary lifestyle?! No no i'm not gonna continue life like this, this is absolutely not me!

Well instead of word-pressing, i would like to summarize it all down into sketchings:

this is me and my Brain

I feed Him 'nutritious essence' almost everyday for more than 6 hours...

i want maximum assimilation to be achieved, , so that He can perform successfully on exam days

I brought Him to the gym as well to undergo intensive training....

Trial exam is over, His performance was quite satisfying, but He's a lil bit quiet than usual. And I knew something was wrong

Beneath the surface, he's actually having battles with unpleasant stuff. Everything comes together, and i don't think He can endure all by Himself

I took Him to see doctor, and that's the only advice. To curb the situation, i think i should maybe use distilled water as relaxation buffer instead of using the so-called 'essence'.

He's recuperating nowadays...

*the end*
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On the other hand...

Inner Voice: Lift ur butt off the chairs start from today! You better resume the workout routine where you left off!

Me: ok ok

Cool or Fool

Most telling, it's foolish to think appearances don't matter at all. And I believe that everybody takes time standing in front of the mirror and puts in effort to make the best appearance possible for their own self. Guys spike up their hair; Ladies put on their nicest outfit before stepping outside their door, so that no one ever had to tell them there's spinach in their teeth or there's hair out of place. Because everybody knows, in this materialistic world people tend to judge a book by its cover, and that's why we can still see the phenomena- good looking people earn more attention and favorable impression.

Talking about hair styling, there was once my lil bro walked up to me uninvited and asked for help to style his hair, i took the comb, regularly combed and brushed his hair, then i was like...... paused, thinking "wad should i do next". I tried to reminisce hairstyles of some of the male friends in class and thought that i could refer theirs then do it on my bro, but to no avail. I've disappointed him that evening. Until today, i'm very curious to know how guys style their hair to make it look that way(neat yet stylish :P) even if their hair is only4-5cm short.

During previous schooldays, i saw a lot of young men with bald heads. My first reaction was "Wad happened dude". I don't really understand why a guy who could potentially have a nice head of hair shaves it bald, as they are not in the military, no cancer, or a psycho. Why?????????????????????????????

50 marks deduction

Not me alone, my friends too find it uncomfortable dealing with bald young men, and the guy would be labelled ''FAIL" after that. (guys it's just the truth of my perception, no offence :P)

Ok back to girls. Would mention only 1, not gonna betray my gender :P Hmm..... Let's just take 1- the toilet outside the cinema. Have you ever notice that whenever a show ends, the walkway outside the toilet would be crowded by men, waiting patiently for their beloved- bf waits for gf, husband waits for wife, father waits for daughters....etc.

our Gentlemen

And at the same time, girls in the toilet are stretching and removing wrinkles on their clothes, brushing hair with bare hands, reapplying foundation, checking if their fringe is out of place....... everything's about maintenance. And trust me, girls want to walk beside you always with their finest attire. So guys, pardon girls if they make you wait XD

This is human nature, they tend to leave their brain at home

Yes i've seen some very good-looking guys, but they are pure trash on the inside! and again we labelled them "FAIL". The situation is more or less like...
First impression - "I think he's cool...";
After working together - "I think he's actually a fool..."

Lol, won't comment much on it. the moral of the story is, Bring your brain along wherever you go.

A message to my Left Brain --- All the best

Underneath the cover

End of year, students are already in holiday mood. School off, tuition classes stop, everybody wants to unwind after months of hard work (fellow of spm candidate dun worry, your hard days are numbered, you'll be free from jail soon)

Well i gotta say that having siblings is good. At home, they fight, they make noise, they laugh out loud, they even make fun in toilet. To deal with period of under pressure, joining them can really take a lil load off my mind, to see what new height of madness we can reach as well. And right behind me now, they(elder and younger sis) are having non-stop conversation on Pet Society

*getting a pindrop silence is almost impossible...

Hmm... I believe most of you people are not the only son or the only daughter at home. And according to my personal research, these are the advantages disadvantages of having siblings :P

Disadvantages:
- sharing rooms (everybody needs privacy)
- sharing computer
- siblings fight (laziness/irresponsibility is always the root for quarrel)
- the oldest has to be best at everything (here comes the undue stress)
- the youngest gets away with EVERYTHING (this is unfair!)

Advantages:
- sharing room (we need them mostly after watching horror movie XD)
- siblings fight (we enjoy the rivalry sometimes actually =P)
- the oldest holds all the cards when it comes to quarrel
- sharing secrets (dun tell papa ok)
- naturally trained into being 'fierce' (you fight back when you know somebody's trying to bully or take advantage from you)
- you learn from the elders (they have decades of experience)
- assistance for studies (how to do tis? use which formula? wad is diksi?)
- sharing clothes (can u lend me a formal outfit next fri?)
- 'trip' at the spur of the moment (it's boring let's head for xxxx--- reach the car key- Zooooom......[gone])
- dividing up household chores (x handle the dishes, y wipe table)
- siblings know us very well (especially ur bad habit XD)
- bored? NEVER (u are not alone)

So it's obvious- Siblings make the world a better place to live in =)

Back to this afternoon after lunch, my bro thrust me the 'The One Academy- International CG & Digital Art Showcase'. He didn't speak, looking at me his another hand feeding himself a giant piece of pineapple. He was trying to tell me--- Here, u should like this. (yes it's one of those kind of book i'm dying to read)

(see, they love you, they understand you, they try to get wadever u like, just to bring you happy; and in turn i've promised myself to be GOOD all time possible as a repay to love them)

*never judge a book by it's cover :P

Ok make it simple, this book encompasses collections of brilliant achievements and art masterpieces of a number of digital artists, ranging from digital animation, gaming, computer graphic and multimedia design. After flipping through it, i've struck a deal with myself- I MUST READ YOU!


*Minutes after...


Having my legs folded on the couch, reading eagerly, allowing my eyes feed on 'nutrients' from the stack of cool illustrations. And i would like to conclude that each and every piece of the art is really a "WHOAH!" and they are too good to be shared. Like usual, i'm prone to thoughts of: no matter how well a person can draw manually without involvement of digital technologies, it's all a big fat zero in the end. And i'm a lil bit upset for knowing not much about digital art.

Resting on my laps was the book, charming me with the spell "Peace retained, Read me again..." The spell tended to play its trick but in vain, due to the fact that i was so drained
The Spell never want to give up, tried again again and again to manipulate me, until............

* took my 45 mins nap...

yawn~~~

I caught a glimpse of the floor, the orange colour book was there lying numbly, motionlessly, dispiritedly. (fainted from exhaustion XD)

The book is undoubtedly worth a read, though the orange colour book cover is not eye-catching. After all the originality of the masterpieces are so beautiful, so breathtaking.

Insecurities? Manipulate me if you can

It's been a hectic time over the last while which explains the large gap since my last posting. And the theme i would like to label for the past few weeks - Restless. Lecturers were cruising at a speed of 110km/h, storm of assignment struck, task and presentation were knocking just outside the door, trial is coming up, stress stretches me so thinly, aah i can hardly take a breather.

Everybody's wrapped up in studies, running at our top speed. Those who used to be incredibly chatty are a lil bit quiet lately, the class is no longer agile. Bearing undue stress, fought through the attempt to take things for granted. my desk is neat but my mind is cluttered. There's still a number locks in my head that need to be unleashed. Extra facts lags my brain, making me difficult to assimilate lessons which has been taught.

What's more, i lost my 40% hearing for no reason. In class, thrusting my ears to listen like a deaf old lady is a must-to-do everyday. Or i would just end up "Pardon?" and the speaker needed to repeat her remarks again.


There was once i was doing practices, the class was so peaceful. Having stereoscopic vision enables me to detect any small movement of surroundings. On my left hand side- mw was spending time pouring over notes searching for solutions; on my right hand side sl(ma' close fren) was facing to the back explaining something to julia; and in front of me sujata was playing with his fren's pocket whereas our 'beloved' lecturer Mr Tai was working with his laptop, mumbling to himself. The environment was so calm, only the sound of air cond blowing.

The moment i moved on to the next question, sl finished dealing with the explanation, she turned back, adjusted her seat and whispered:" You've just ignored a person who has called ur name for more than 3 times." (sorry again julia i was half-deaf, cant hear u) So for the past few weeks, sl was the third ear of mine, helped me to listen IF i've missed out anything. And for no reason, my hearing is restored unknowingly. Thank god i need not use the phrase "speak louder" anymore.

It's the 1st day of trial today. 8:15am, i thought i was an early bird. Ascent the main stairs, wow the lobby was crowded. Most of them sere still having their notes in hand. Met my classmates, took 20 minutes pleasant talk. Exam kicked off at 9am sharp.

tick tock tick tock....

"Percentage purity= x(pure)/ y(impure) x 100%" This is the last phrase of my report. Handed up my paper, left the lab, answered the call of nature (before urinary leakage takes place due to bladder pressure exceeds urethral pressure)

Having my introspective department to recall everything.

Ok it's time for my body fragments to speak again:-
Introspective Department: Studies shown, 1 calculation is done wrongly! Right hand, it's ur fault. Care to clarify?

Right Hand: I have done nothing wrong! I was just obeying Arm Muscle's order.

Left Brain: ...........

Arm Muscle: Wad la u! Dun simply accuse wei. Nerve Impulse directed me to move that way.

Left Brain: ...........

Nerve Impulse: Wasn't me!! I was just doing my 'receive and transfer' job perfectly (pointing at left brain) He sent me wrong electrical signals.

Introspective Department: Madam, it's Left Brain's fault then. He gave wrong interpretation.

Left Brain: Sorry i was a lil bit panic just now....

Everybody: How could you!...

Logical Department: Quiet~!(bringing the hammer down) Plz listen to me. Careless Syndrome escaped from cage successfully this morning. He might have attacked Left Brain unknowingly.

Me: CW military troops! Start implementing curfew, enforce security policies anywhere anytime especially along cerebrum. He might be hiding in between the left n right hemisphere. Arrest him by today!

CW Military Troops: Yes madam! (gone)

Left Brain: Sorry..

Me: Mistakes are made to learn from. Chill babe

Yes i'm not interested at all in maintaining this feud- Carelessness, and i'm still doing research and practice on how to cure such syndrome. Somebody, smack me please. Slap away this syndrome.

Aiks things are not to my liking, and some are just really intimidating. My drawings are ruined, my wishes are partly snagged, the odds are against me, so what? I have still a huge surge of personal energy to play with. Hohoo! Slide along, i'm not taking breaks!