14.11.08

Insecurities? Manipulate me if you can

It's been a hectic time over the last while which explains the large gap since my last posting. And the theme i would like to label for the past few weeks - Restless. Lecturers were cruising at a speed of 110km/h, storm of assignment struck, task and presentation were knocking just outside the door, trial is coming up, stress stretches me so thinly, aah i can hardly take a breather.

Everybody's wrapped up in studies, running at our top speed. Those who used to be incredibly chatty are a lil bit quiet lately, the class is no longer agile. Bearing undue stress, fought through the attempt to take things for granted. my desk is neat but my mind is cluttered. There's still a number locks in my head that need to be unleashed. Extra facts lags my brain, making me difficult to assimilate lessons which has been taught.

What's more, i lost my 40% hearing for no reason. In class, thrusting my ears to listen like a deaf old lady is a must-to-do everyday. Or i would just end up "Pardon?" and the speaker needed to repeat her remarks again.


There was once i was doing practices, the class was so peaceful. Having stereoscopic vision enables me to detect any small movement of surroundings. On my left hand side- mw was spending time pouring over notes searching for solutions; on my right hand side sl(ma' close fren) was facing to the back explaining something to julia; and in front of me sujata was playing with his fren's pocket whereas our 'beloved' lecturer Mr Tai was working with his laptop, mumbling to himself. The environment was so calm, only the sound of air cond blowing.

The moment i moved on to the next question, sl finished dealing with the explanation, she turned back, adjusted her seat and whispered:" You've just ignored a person who has called ur name for more than 3 times." (sorry again julia i was half-deaf, cant hear u) So for the past few weeks, sl was the third ear of mine, helped me to listen IF i've missed out anything. And for no reason, my hearing is restored unknowingly. Thank god i need not use the phrase "speak louder" anymore.

It's the 1st day of trial today. 8:15am, i thought i was an early bird. Ascent the main stairs, wow the lobby was crowded. Most of them sere still having their notes in hand. Met my classmates, took 20 minutes pleasant talk. Exam kicked off at 9am sharp.

tick tock tick tock....

"Percentage purity= x(pure)/ y(impure) x 100%" This is the last phrase of my report. Handed up my paper, left the lab, answered the call of nature (before urinary leakage takes place due to bladder pressure exceeds urethral pressure)

Having my introspective department to recall everything.

Ok it's time for my body fragments to speak again:-
Introspective Department: Studies shown, 1 calculation is done wrongly! Right hand, it's ur fault. Care to clarify?

Right Hand: I have done nothing wrong! I was just obeying Arm Muscle's order.

Left Brain: ...........

Arm Muscle: Wad la u! Dun simply accuse wei. Nerve Impulse directed me to move that way.

Left Brain: ...........

Nerve Impulse: Wasn't me!! I was just doing my 'receive and transfer' job perfectly (pointing at left brain) He sent me wrong electrical signals.

Introspective Department: Madam, it's Left Brain's fault then. He gave wrong interpretation.

Left Brain: Sorry i was a lil bit panic just now....

Everybody: How could you!...

Logical Department: Quiet~!(bringing the hammer down) Plz listen to me. Careless Syndrome escaped from cage successfully this morning. He might have attacked Left Brain unknowingly.

Me: CW military troops! Start implementing curfew, enforce security policies anywhere anytime especially along cerebrum. He might be hiding in between the left n right hemisphere. Arrest him by today!

CW Military Troops: Yes madam! (gone)

Left Brain: Sorry..

Me: Mistakes are made to learn from. Chill babe

Yes i'm not interested at all in maintaining this feud- Carelessness, and i'm still doing research and practice on how to cure such syndrome. Somebody, smack me please. Slap away this syndrome.

Aiks things are not to my liking, and some are just really intimidating. My drawings are ruined, my wishes are partly snagged, the odds are against me, so what? I have still a huge surge of personal energy to play with. Hohoo! Slide along, i'm not taking breaks
!

1 comment:

Jacey said...

Good luck in your trials!