What i've been up to

:P and :S are the emoticons that best describe my situation now. *KNOCK!* It's not that i'm playful and being disgusted at the same time! Think better! sticking out tongue + irritated. I got my tongue burned when having dinner couple of hours ago and it's currently numbed, as if having a layer of 3-minutes super glue on it, this doesn't feel good at all!

Seeing that april of this year is about to end, i'm gonna let this term 'Packed' set in to express my past hecticness. Besides being tied up with an Art project, i've gone through some of the most exciting moments in the process of getting ma admittance to XXX college approved, though was still a lil nervous while being interviewed back then.... dun care! what's more important now is the outcome! :D But guess what, the most heartaching part recently is the moment of some mornings when i got up b4 work and this thought of 'your days is numbered' lurked around ma mind.... Thinking about the opportunity of broadened exposure, i felt glad of course, but sadly without my loved one :[ What's next? it's gonna be all the process of getting NOC, student visa....etc.

Thinking back the session before interview when i was in a room, with a number of applicants from different states and different races, sitting around an oval wood table, with most of the heads down, staring aimlessly at their nails, some having crossed arms (for guys it looked totally fine as they succeed displaying their coolness, as for gurls...... what shd i say.... the sense of streangtening the wall of ice came more stronger than any other purposes) Wasn't nervous at all, i looked outside the window, took a glimpse under the table, looked outside the window again... Oh the blazing sun is shining proudly outside.... oh poor ppl ur under it... ok stop, i'm not going to keep turning my neck for all these only... do something! The scent of awkwardness was getting thicker and thicker... Omg this is freaking uncomfortable!! Somebody broke the dreadful silence out of the sudden fulfilling my silent request, seeing his initiative, another guy joined, so was i, so the chain of talks begun, there were some awkward pause, still, but for sure far more better than the utterly-weird period before that. Back then, was fated to be in the room and had a brief, fun conversation with these particular future doctors and dentists. The day was cool.