I'm done with my visa finally! But the major discovery is- I thought i'm mentally prepared for meeting people culturally different from me all this while, but i found that i'm actually not-really ready yet. 3 days back i was in the High Commission of India where this place was flooded by indians and such scene made the thought i was already in india -.- Like a lost duckling i searched for notice board, well they were all in tamil and i couldn't read any of it!
-the lost duckling-
No way they must hav got something for us non-indian! :O
*didn't give up casting my sight from walls to walls, spotted one written in english at last, studied through*
Ok now i nid to get to the 2nd counter...
While making my way through the crowd to reach the point where i was supposed to be, i found myself being stared like an utter outsider by some unfriendly and unfamiliar faces (not that they weren't friendly, they just looked freaking serious) There were two fair-skinned in-my-age boy and girl in the sea of people waiting helplessly to be attended too, they couldn't hide their anxiousness towards disorganization of the staff's filing system (like me) thus raising questions for reassurance was the only securance measure they could take (i know it might be irritating for staffs, but we had the rights to get well-informed, and as long as we felt better, who cares :P )
I then headed to india visa centers and it was greta seeing our documents being handled in a better manner, neat and coordinated at least (though received awkward stares while walking across the hall too, that doesn't feel good, at all) It took quite some time before i directed myself to the counter.
There was this indian lady in her late 50's, kind and approachable, joined the crowd and sat down. Not more than 5 minutes after composing herself, the punjabi man next to her initiated conversation about traveling and both of them started telling their stories. This lady sounded like...... "i'm going to A..... then B........ then C then finally D" A man sitting two chairs away broke his silence right after hearing such complication then gave opinion on alternative simple flight route. Wasn't only the man suggesting, folks around the old lady politely spoke and shared wise advice too. (Do comparison: Do we chinese make sound when finding out the others are in trouble? NAH! Chinese all kiamsiap-kiamsiap belaka, they don't give a shit about your problem) While enjoying hearing conversations, i got to know that the man who'd been sharing helpful tips is an MBBS degree holder and used to travel there once a week, he has his own driver somemore in india! (wow) Mind you i wasn't eavesdropping, the office was as silent as the grave. Isn't only doctor, he's a very kind doctor! :D he's going to offer help on transport and accommodation for the lady. Chinese? u wan to die? go ahead and die! I'm not betraying my own race.... i'm just telling what i see, no hard feelings ;)So i handed in my documents but this ain't the end of the story 'cz i still had to come this place again for collection, which is the last step of the procedures :D
The next day evening, i stepped in... "P'tang encik, nak collect visa ni" Upon learning that i needed to wait for an hour, i got myself a seat then dozed off. Moments later i was already in the line claiming my passport, like everyone else, i breathed a sigh of relief. fuuuuhhhhhhhhh! With a subtle smile of satisfaction, i left the building.
*Ok off to the bathroom! i haven't brush n floss my teeth yet -.- *
Looks like my current life has been constrained by habit to sleep and wake up early. It sounds rather depressing somehow i find no excuse to laze on the bed and at least i've got more things done even with two or more morning hours. It felt pretty weird back then in the morning that i needn't do the routine set of getting-ready and go to work instead i can have my messy curly hair haphazardly twisted-pinned-up, loose T and running shorts---yes i'm not going out from this house for the rest of the day! wheeeeee~
Not more than 1 month time i will b leaving for the decision i've made. Upon reading the related documents thoroughly, realness woke me up at the same time complication hit my state of mind :s No doubt bits of excitement is always there but trace of bitterness is inevitable 'cz there's still something hanging over...
I seldom speak everything of my mind 'cz i don't see the necessity. Unlike any other people especially gurls, i don't like expressing (bragging) how-superior-my-job/task/course/life is nor parading toughness-and-stickyness-of-my-current-position as to subsequently fish for compliment or to induce someone to mercy-shower me *rolling eyes* Even worse is, people of the surrounding tend to be even stupidier to slip along and fulfill the subject's satisfaction *violently rolling eyes* C'mon why bother spending time pleasing these kind of people as so many victims of qinghai out there are now so in need of your concern and love. Get smarter, throw them shit, not fish!
How do I define a pleasant morning? In past a pleasant morning enabled me to laze in the bed having myself wrapped in the blanket and witness how morning sunlight penetrates through the curtain at its graceful pace then brightens the floor of my room, and if i wanted to i could just close my eyes after that and continue my sleeping.
Until one sunday morning i changed my thought- A pleasant morning is more than counting teddy bears printed on my curtains. Passing by streets of exiting my residential area in the early morning hour, fresh grasses were stretching their back beneath tall standing trees, houses were sleeping while nesting all tired city folks, not to miss out fluffy cotton-white cloud that lingerd around the soulful bright and blue sky. Came across some stalls where early birds were having street food, it was delightful seeing kids with their parents, babies in baby's high chair hitting on the tray, teenagers having arms supporting their sleepy-heavy-whacky head. The heavy doze of family-day atmosphere mercilessly flooded me.
Of all the good times i've missed out, i want the sunday-mornings back.
Before you realize it, this school holidays is going to wave us goodbye(i know it has nothing to do with Us)and with another 1.5 week, the sixth month of this year of Tiger is about to come to an end. Having almost all my time gobbled up by my current part-time (yet seemingly full-time) job, i hardly see or make time out for any of the sister's/buddies outing, adding that i seldom update my profile picture on fb, those who haven't see my for this while might have asked how do i look in present. Well, i'm sure that some of the people love giving this kind of answer "Two eyes, two ears, two nostrils..." listing out all the common physical features, favorably starting from those which exist in pairs, unless u're telling how much hair you've plucked to shape your eyebrown, how much longer ur hair has grown in exact millimeter, then ur creative! Anyway not much difference here, just had another hair cut the other day.
Flowing with agenda of today, it was quite a "wow" this morning that not more than 40 minutes spent, i'm done with the procedures of renewing my NRIC and i managed to get home far more earlier, while i thought it would take away my entire morning waiting with all the 12-years old schoolboys schoolgirls (school holidays ma, all free-free come out buat IC la) Surprised, i now have more spare time on 9th june in my personal invisible appointment book :D Notably, the female staff was so amicable to show and ask if i'm satisfied with the new photo taken (thanks for the offer, a Star for u) "Ok" then i sounded, even i didn't think so, cz i knew that any other shoot would definitely give the same results cz it's MORNING hour, puffy baggy eyes is inevitble!
Keeping the printer dormant almost all these while, scanning over 40+ certificates made myself a pair of dust-glove. Alright i should get on with my online application for XxxX scholarship. Kindly forgive absence of my drawings on this site, u can put the blame on my idleness.
"I think it would look better in _________ (colour)" I just found myself love sounding like this lately whenever i felt things are not right, as in colour matching.
Last week when me n my colleague Jon playfully flipped through a dental operatories brochure till a cool orange-themed dental chair caught our eyes but further studying didn't impress us much cz the bracket-table (for dentist) isn't big enough, bracket-table (for dental assistant) doesn't look supportive as if it can be easily broken when doing some mixing which needs pressure, the restback looked thin, so probably would be hard like stone and the most important reason that i rated it Fail- the restback is in brownish-orange colour, which actually makes patients (and me) think it's old. Maybe the dental chair manufacturer loves orange? But i think the restback would definitely look great in limegreen.
Last friday lil sister n dad came back from blood donation drive n got towel as gift, one in orange and another in blue. Wouldn't comment much about blue but now look at this orange, so pale, like patient, and i started to think: Is it bcz there's only fabric of these two colour left? or this is their 'taste'? And i told them it would look awesome in carnation pink.
Three days back, i saw a new container in mom's lap and i told my lil sister persian rose pink suits it better.
Yes i'm picky than ever when talking about Colour. That's why i've hated my dark-blue-sports-T throughout my five secondary school years.
Colour- like personality, it comes in a huge bag, but not all suit you.
Chiropractor- i need one here. The sharp ache stroke like lightning in my back almost everytime i turned to fasten ma seat belt or to apply force to the clutch b4 shifting it to the next gear *ouch!* ok maybe i spent too much time hunching during work. Seriously i'm like an old lady recently.... adding on, i seldom workout nowadays =.= Eeew i hate this stout feeling of being a calorie bank storing all the unnecessary energy. Obviously i need to go for a jog so that i could clear all the debris off my head otherwise i'll incline to take all the negative stuff in.
Jogging has been long misunderstood as a lonely activity cz from most of the view ppl only see a moving model running like a machine setting their own pace performing the same exact movements throughout the process, they see joggers running, but they don't see the 'inner running' in joggers. Ain't physical alone, jogging coats a jogger with mental n spiritual benefits. As they run, a lot of thoughts r running in their head too, at the same speed of how joggers bring themselves while clearing their way to bigger insight, together with the alone time from which joggers indulge most of their sense. With all the junky dirt discarded at the end of the process, a new mind is reborned under the warmest glazing sun and pleasant smell of greeneries,this is where self esteem originates and this is why i said joggers are never alone.
I think a lot, but sometimes i think too much. Don't understand? Here.
Of all the diseases, which is the most dreadful for u?
There's so much of the pictures run through ma mind but i jz couldn't pick one cz on the other side i started thinking about this scene of my right arm..... black dots can be seen from far. Close up, they're coming out from each n every single of the skin pore, there's motion too! Zoom in more, you're seeing a field of tiny sea-shell-like creatures with glossy-black exoskeleton opening and closing their cover rapidly on ur skin. These black crispy shells can be easily brushed off, ,leaving most of the broken pieces sticking to the hand that you jz used to brush 'em. This ain't the end of the story. Give it to the closest zoom again on your skin, the shell-like creatures start growing again, bigger and BIGGERRRRR..... Yerh cukUp! I've got goosebumps all over me!! darn geli larh X[ *brushing arms excessively as if they r now growing* Don't ask me what disease is this! I DON'T KNOW! *still brushing disgustedly*
I'm sick, i mean, my heart is sick, this is an unpleasant emotion. I can hardly get entertained eventhough she was like trying to be funny to retain her usual happy-go-lucky mode.... Tell me about it, she was just faking it all. She's doing something isolatedly different among us, she's under lotsa pressure, she's gotta go all the way down on her own, without sufficient guides from her siblings. It's tough, cz she barely finds clue from us, as we are hintless literally :( I sincerely hope that she'll be endowed with good luck. All the best Lima!
Was sorry and a lil grumpy along when being acknowledged that Hungery's fb, msn and hotmail accounts got hacked again, all at once. Guess she had a bad night yesterday. Grow up and get a life hackers! *ZAP!!* *In case there's some question marks start developing over ur head, here i'm gonna clear it all. "Lima" is my fav way of referring to my lil sis,which had gone through numbers of evolutions, IINM, as for "Hungery", it's a very recent nickname given to ma older sis. Yep we hav a lot of stoopid and unexplainable family language among ourselves. Not you, not any others fellow, only Siblings are allowed to insult me! :P Needless to say, my love to my siblings is undescribable*
Things went well until this monrning... It's supposed to be a dream of 5 person, but the future's really not ours to see :0 like how it's been sung in this popular song Que Sera Sera
:P and :S are the emoticons that best describe my situation now. *KNOCK!* It's not that i'm playful and being disgusted at the same time! Think better! sticking out tongue + irritated. I got my tongue burned when having dinner couple of hours ago and it's currently numbed, as if having a layer of 3-minutes super glue on it, this doesn't feel good at all!
Seeing that april of this year is about to end, i'm gonna let this term 'Packed' set in to express my past hecticness. Besides being tied up with an Art project, i've gone through some of the most exciting moments in the process of getting ma admittance to XXX college approved, though was still a lil nervous while being interviewed back then.... dun care! what's more important now is the outcome! :D But guess what, the most heartaching part recently is the moment of some mornings when i got up b4 work and this thought of 'your days is numbered' lurked around ma mind.... Thinking about the opportunity of broadened exposure, i felt glad of course, but sadly without my loved one :[ What's next? it's gonna be all the process of getting NOC, student visa....etc.
Thinking back the session before interview when i was in a room, with a number of applicants from different states and different races, sitting around an oval wood table, with most of the heads down, staring aimlessly at their nails, some having crossed arms (for guys it looked totally fine as they succeed displaying their coolness, as for gurls...... what shd i say.... the sense of streangtening the wall of ice came more stronger than any other purposes) Wasn't nervous at all, i looked outside the window, took a glimpse under the table, looked outside the window again... Oh the blazing sun is shining proudly outside.... oh poor ppl ur under it... ok stop, i'm not going to keep turning my neck for all these only... do something! The scent of awkwardness was getting thicker and thicker... Omg this is freaking uncomfortable!! Somebody broke the dreadful silence out of the sudden fulfilling my silent request, seeing his initiative, another guy joined, so was i, so the chain of talks begun, there were some awkward pause, still, but for sure far more better than the utterly-weird period before that. Back then, was fated to be in the room and had a brief, fun conversation with these particular future doctors and dentists. The day was cool.
I miss the days where i can have my head resting on my folding arms at my study table, doing revision (as if i'm willing to) trying my best to finish 3 chapters in a day (cz test is around the corner), blending brain juice for merely a single maths ques......... Ok i admit, i miss the times of being a Student so badly :0
Time past very fast today, not sure why was it so..... should b the way we took turns to assist i guess. Today was cool 'cz another lil surgical tooth extraction coloured our day as I was able to work alongside the doctor while suturing! :D You know, it's your pleasure to be trusted and given opportunity to learn! :D :D So i was asked to prepare another table setup after denture issue n extraction-Plastic instrument, needle holder, XXX, YYY, ZZZ (sorry forgotten the names of the instruments) and finally chromic gut 3/0 (consisting a curved needle attached with thread-like material, which is absorbable and can degrade by itself). So after putting Bio-Oss (white-color-powder-like thingy which helps achieve regeneration of natural bone- one of a new nice thing learned today :) ) into the 2 extraction wounds.... and finally process of suturing made the best part of all! :D was totally amazed seeing the needle pricking through the gums in and out...out and in... with fresh red blood all around.... and it was really a "wow" thing seeing how skillful the doctor tying knots... it's jz so unbelievable that all these happened ryte in front of my eyes, 0.24m away from my eyeball precisely =D
It just feels totally different after a thorough shower as it flushed away the stickiness that stems from our bad weather nowadays, from being like a pig in mud, i am now so refreshed! having a mouthful of homemade pencuci mulut (thanks mom, muah!!), tasting the smoothness of compound yielded from blending mango and ice together, yummmmmmmmmmm!! (yes u can call me glutton ;P)
Who doesn't like white and bright teeth? So there came another patient the otehr day coming over for whitening. The procedure went like.... applying some kind of red colour semiliquid (the oxydizing agent which lightens the shade of tooth) over the teeth with another blue one at the edge, as if putting cream on cake :D then shine curing-light onto it for almost an hour. Was total fun assiting throughout the dental procedures, jz that neckache followed after that since we had been keeping the light shone as close as possible to the teeth, 3s per tooth (>3 will cause sensitivity), bore in mind that the tip that emmits light never touched the teeth/semiliquid. The patient was adviced not to talk throughout the process to reduce saliva production and to make our life easier 'cz at intervals we needed to keep the patient's mouth dry using suction, at the same time made sure the gel didn't come into contact with his gums. After all the shining and sucking, remove the semiliquid. So for the following days the patient shouldn't take any highly-stained food cz the colour of teeth aren't stable yet and they are pretty liable to colour absoprtion.
Right after my work finished that day i saw this patient talking to his friend right outside the bank, we greeted each other, and yes, he looked confident with his smile now! *shielding eyes from bright and shinny teeth*
"Okaaaay...."has been my favourite reaction when seeing badly stained teeth. Yes you, i'm talking about you, Smokers! I prayed the hardest every moment patients first-opened their mouth that they are non-smokers.... otherwise i had to half-bend my back for half an hour FULL throughout the dental cleaning(scaling) session, u know.... u can't squat nor stand staright while using suction *ouch kneeache.... my back too..... need a chiropractor here* as you need to keep an eye for the exact spot where water accumulates then you gotta point the suction head there to remove as much water as possible, not too forcefully until it sticks to the walls of oral cavity or u're gonna end up sucking nothing with undesired noise contamination. SCREeEEEeeeEEEEeEEEEEEeEEEEEeehhHH~~~~
*Spotted some guilty eyes*
Those who never bother to brush their teeth start looking away..... cz they know i'm gonna lecture them >:)
I am given an apple, a banana and a kiwi, out of nowhere there comes another orange and all together i have 4 now but i can only choose 1...
Hotnews today- Results will be released on this friday!!! n u can see how this fact casts its super power of gnawing people's hearts, at the same time daunting us in certain way, making all our good energy for our pursuit of pleasure wanes.
At first i didn't seem to feel anything..... but u know when u see all ur frenz niggling about that particular slip that can bring u either high up the sky or deep down the valley, u jz can't help feeling the same, as the field in ur heart thus started being sowed with seeds of Worries and wheats of Nervousness.
Lately i'm drained..... represented my college in numerous intercolleges racing competitions, undergone training at intervals, had been having merely 4 hours sleeping per day, all these lasted for 2 weeks++ arrrrrrrrrrrrhhh!! and all these happens only when hell freezes over HAhAHahA! (yes i'm so lame)
If ur still wondering what i'm up to actually, u can stop wondering cz i'm now satisfying ur thirst of knowing it. Yes i'm working nowadays as a dental assistant at e dental clinic near my college. Special thanks to my colleuges Jon n Thomas, they helped me a lottttttt with bottomless patience, kindness and thoughtfulness n i learned a whole lot from them! :)
Today was rather different, was cool back then, cz there was this MOS (minor oral surgery) case tensing up the atmosphere inside the clinic. Imagine door closed, lights off, only a fine glint of light being seen from the open space under the door of surgery room, adding on the incessant drilling sound coming from the room with pauses at times, can u feel it? the scene of zooming in, can u? Yes yes ur almost there!!
Generally this male patient's wisdom tooth grown horizontally towards the the preceding molar (if i'm not mistaken) somemore under insufficient space for eruption, so doctor had to remove it otherwise it's gonna cause profound discomfort in the patient. A pair of hand performing the main crucial task, another 3 pairs performing the sub-tasks (holding patient's jaw, removing blood via suction, manipulating the dental operatory light, spraying antiseptic [is that anticeptic? forgotten its name... will ask doc the next day], reloading the cotton...etc) contributing to the entire functioning procedures. At times i was in charge of controlling the operatory light, wasn't easy, cz the doctor's-all-the-time-moving-hands were likely 2 block the light ray thus the one playing with this must be always smart enough to make sure the light hits on target area in patient's confined oral cavity. So to do my best, i set my eyes right beside the light so that i could see what the light sees, and in order to do this, i tiptoed for almost every seconds when doing it for effective light-directing and for better view for doctor, n i hoped that i could jz stand on a stool =.=" There was once tears squeezing out from the patient's eyes..... awww........ :( * wiped for him*
Even in an air-conditioned room, our hairline were sweaty-wet, cz we were all on the same boat, leaded by the doctor who was under lotsa pressure no doubt. Every removal of the fractured wisdom tooth was a relief, pieces by pieces, from tiny to big then to tiny again, and finally, the root has been successfully detached and removed! hooray! at the same time being astonished when seeing the curved root of this stubborn wisdom tooth o.O CoooooOoOOOOoooooOOooool~ So the surgery was officially done after getting another dental X-ray to make sure there's none of the fractured tooth left beneath the gums and some post medication application. It was getting dimmer n dimmer outside, and this surgery lasted more or less 3 hours. Looking at the patient walking out relaxingly, no longer with the densed pace when walking in, warmth was what we felt :)
I've removed the chat box for own likeness btw, not an active blogger so don't expect prompt response from me here :)
Argh i've had enough of these popup windows.... so sickening wei
Believe it anot? Things never happened within my frame of expectation, even i had listed out the most significant liberal idea. So from the day i realized this, i never dared to imagine any good outcome instead i only prepared for the worst.
I think a lot, dream even more frequently (of course not when i'm working la) Hmm have u ever felt that you have a whole lot of feeling u wanna tell and express but u can't? It's like you have to keep it all inside your head without leakage at the same time you are trying to stay rational and play the mind game. Thank god my EQ is sufficiently high enough to suppress the move to spill everything out otherwise i must have blurted out something that will channel me to somewhere i've been longing for, which is a temporal nice thing for me, but not sure if the others approve.... hmmmmmmmmmmmm. Thus far i couldn't complain too much about my current position, cz life treats me good, still :)Wish me all the best!
Recently found songs by Owl City mesmorizing, with flow of essence of poetry expressiveness, accrediting the intelligence in da lyrics. Yes i'm easily attracted to intelligent guys ;)
P.I.G. is something almost each and everyone of you will encounter during chinese new year. *Smack!!* I'm not talking about the pink creature with a stout body and curled tail.
P.I.G. ain't a bad thing to bump into, it's very subjective in fact, depending on one's tolerance level. One has to be prepared for this, still.
What's P.I.G.? Read.
Pain in wallet When lady luck isn't on your side, you're gonna have a hard time forgiving yourself for the rest of ur day. aiyoooooooooooooo i shdn't have bla bla bla...... Some gamblers gamble for the sake of taking chances, some gamble for the sake of entertaining the others (they dun wan to be a spoilsport.. what to do?)
Interview session The moment you step in the hall where all your relatives/old folks are there, you should have all the answers dished up in your head dy cz you know they're gonna pile you with flood of questions. Even they don't speak to you, you have to initiate conversation with them, otherwise they'll call you Rude. And the worst part is, you don't know what they're talking about at some point, then you have no clue how to continue, what's more left to do other than staying tongue-tied? Smile maybe =)
Gain weight CNY is nothing but a festival of fattening. From day to night, makan minum tidur, saving all calories in ur thighs and tummy, taking in all kind of deep fried food almost everyday.... Lately, seeing range of cny snacks jz make me queasy...... uuuuuureeeekk!... from 2135662178789531 types of crackers, to seaweed rows, chicken floss row, then ba kwa..... Get lost! all get lost! semua ni i TAK NAK!!~*crossing arms like ultraman*
This morning ter-comb pimples in my hairline.... @#$%^&*(*#*(^!~!@#!
Now it all sum up the definition of P.I.G. Gong hei fatt choi!!
Yo sup people. It's been a while i've given myself off from blogging, anyway i'm back here to announce that i'm officially done with ma pre-U studies weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!! :D
So,i just went for a good jog this morning, yes the same old place again. I seldom head to da gym, ain't much a gym person in fact cz working out in a closed up box with artificial cold air doesn't bring much of those kind of lively energy.... you know... you'll be like fighting for O2 at the same time taking in other people's CO2... eww!
Thanks to pasar malam jz right in front of my house and the karaoke centre next door, only i'm reminded that cny is around the corner n it's just 6 days away! :D Sneaking into the kitchen for a quick bite is already my hobby throughout these teenage years, so it wouldn't surprise me to see a figure having heavy bottom in the mirror XD
The past week has been just superb as i can still feel the excitement now, especially the remarkable trip with ma classmates to one of my fav work out place- taman pertanian :) The day was totally O-M-G as most of us have never imagined that we can have a blast together in such a cool way with lotsa laughs, craps, screams, gayness and the most notable kinda-frightening-monkey-attack experience!! Siva nearly got scratched by the monkey, was literally a close call, but thank god none injured, we returned home safe and sound :) We learned something at least- when the same thing happens next time, make sure you're holding something big (a spade perhaps) before yelling at the top of ur lungs to chase them off. Never use your 'weapon' to hit these animals! berdosa tau!
I was able to snap this monkey only (the most ganas fella, also the head of the family we think) One was fine... but for the next minute seeing whole bunch of monkeys moving towards our way just chilled our bones. Back then, the head of the monkey family only want food for his family :(Good luck monkeys, may god bless u'l :)
part of ma lovely classmates
Alright i think i should just have a shower now otherwise will be late to my next meetup with ma former schoolmates. Have a nice day peeps!
Have been dating for 3 weeks+ but my date never talked to me.
"To my date,
Day and night, i can't get you off my mind, Babe i gotta say that you're one of my kind. Ups and downs, sky or ground, Things become easier when you're around."
me and my date
This blog will again remain inoperative till my final exam ends. To curl my lips upwards or downwards 2 months later, this is the time! All the best to my coursemates!
-the lost duckling-
